Had a really fantastic Christmas and New Year. While they haven’t lacked for stress and drama, the last two weeks have been informative – transitional – as the time around the new year often is.
There are three relationships that got some consideration over the last couple weeks. Despite the fact that I have a blog and occasionally expound upon my feelings at length I’m generally pretty uncomfortable doing so publicly. But I feel the need to make a few comments here and now – for posterity, I suppose.
The first relationship is with work – with my job, office, whatever you wanna call it. It’s not in great shape and I’m really going to have to take some time over the next year to figure that out. Hopefully things will look better with time and if nothing else I’ll have finished my grad degree in the next year. It is sobering, after dealing with the stress of the last few weeks of work to realize that this stuff – stressful though it may be – doesn’t mean nearly as much as the other two relationships. That helps to put this issue at least, into perspective.
The second is with my cousin. We had somewhat of a falling out over the holiday. I understand her perspective and naturally, I understand my own. I need to talk to her but I also need to give that some time – for both of us, I think. I’m sad and a little worried about it but I’m confident that with a little time and discussion all will be resolved. Hey, we’re family. I love her and she knows it.
The third, I will leave vague and say only that relationships can be a terrible, stupid, mess of complexity. And they can also be fantastic. It’s even possible for them to be both at the same time. I’m giving up on someone that is very important to me because I know it’s for the best but it doesn’t make it feel good. And I know it won’t feel good for awhile.
Despite what sounds like a sad and pathetic blog post I’m really doing ok. Sure, I had other plans for this week- hell, for this year – but you make do with what you have in life and the people you’ve got. There’s a lot of good things on the horizon and I’m really excited to see what’s to come in 2011. I have high hopes. Bring it on.